[Adventures of Miss Seductive Venus] in absentia

in absentia

I still miss you sometimes. You're like an open wound that catches my every breath. 

I am not in pain. I am pain. It’s such a strange and hurtful thought to think that you’ve actually chosen to break me after making so many promises.

You aren’t worthy of my feelings. I know that, of course. You aren’t worthy of kindness or even mercy. You’re the lowest of the low. What you’ve done is unforgivable. This is the truth. Yet I will always extend my hand towards you just as my eyes will always follow you.

You’re gone, I know. There’s no chance that you will come back. I know that you shouldn’t even darken my door or even walk within five feet of me. But you’re like a thief because you can trespass inside my mind and steal all of my confidence in one sweep. You don’t need any keys. You can simply walk in and lay claim to possess my pitiful heart.

It’s not much, I know, but it’s everything that I have. It is everything that I can offer you.

They used to say, “out of sight, out of mind.” It’s not true. This is better: “Absence makes the heart grow fonder.” I will always miss you. I will always love you. In spite of my insistence that I am moving on, I am getting better and I will never take you back…

I will do it, in a heartbeat, if you will come back.

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Vignettes are easier to write.