[Diary] Wherever I go, There you are

It's day XX of the Extended Community Quarantine (ECQ). I've already lost track of time. Days and weeks just blend into each other in my mind. It's just one very long Indian summer for me.

Easter Sunday came and went. I spent that weekend in deep cleaning the house, finishing up the laundry and taking care of the groceries. I felt lethargic and lazy but I still pushed myself to move. If I didn't then my household of two people would probably fall apart.

As I've mentioned before in a previous entry, I clean the house regularly to soothe my own anxiety. That includes sweeping, mopping the floor, clearing the dishes and airing out the rugs. In this uncertain and dark times, I will take all of the peace of mind that I can get. Living in a spectacularly clean and orderly house is just a bonus.

Let's move on to the good news since that's the reason that I'm writing this entry. 

Good news! I've already started in a new job last week. The company was kind enough to allow me to start my training though a work from home program because I had a fast internet connection, a laptop that can handle the tools and a decent mobile phone. 

It's still a customer service job that will require me to answer customer's inquiries and complaints via email. Well, that's nothing new to me because that's exactly what I've been doing in my career this whole time.

What I'm aiming for now is tenure, a salary raise and more experience in other tasks. In my job, I am fully committing to coming to work on time, no absences and hitting my targets so that my bosses will see my value and my skills. I want to stay in this company for at least three years.

I already like my coworkers because they have a young, chill and easygoing vibe. It's definitely going to be different from my previous experience in my last call center company. Working in an 85% male-dominated environment is also a plus because there's less drama and less pressure.

In this scary economic downfall, a job is a job. I need my job to pay for my medications, my doctor visits, my rent, my bills and my savings. I need this job to stay fully sane and to insert some meaning into my life. I need it so I can save up for our future.

Anyway, I've already written about my long-term depression in a past entry. Since the start of summer in March, I've felt the inner workings of my mind shifting to a more upbeat, outgoing and energetic position. It's manic time! 

My energy levels went up and so did my racing thoughts. In an attempt to harness this pure creative energy, I turned my attention to my manuscript. I haven't added anything to it since 2012. I wanted to send it to a writing workshop so I decided to devote time, attention and love to it. 

Lo and behold, I finished my manuscript in 10 days!

As I came down my manic high, I realized that it still needed lots of editing, research and a professional opinion from a beta reader. But I still managed to give it an ending and a beginning. It might even become a trilogy. Who knows?

I am just simply happy that Ava and Kieran have finally ended up together. They met, fell in love and married each other. All they have to do now is to fight off a devil that's deadly intent on collecting payment for centuries worth of service. How exciting!

Of course, I still think I'm manic and it's bound to last for a while. My mania comes every time it's summer. When the rain comes, my depression takes over. It's that easy to understand. March, April, May and June will probably find me feeling excitable, irritable, positive and creative. As interesting as it sounds, it will probably leave me feeling tired and cranky by July.

I'll try to write everyday to keep a real journal. It's the best way for me to manage my racing thoughts, delusions and other thoughts of grandeur. You can say that I will happily dump all of my thoughts into my blog for all of the world to see. 

See you tomorrow!